& pain.

wizard: what do you want to be most in the world?

august: found.

ohh, grey.

and for the most part, i'm not angry, sad. just disappointed.

most people don't understand that particular emotion. which makes me wonder, why do i even try? it's not like anyone's really going to stop and listen. really, i am thoroughly bored with people who ask for answers they don't want to hear. honestly, what's the point. (what's the pint? HAHAA.)

boo.

it's like no one takes me seriously anymore.













(hahaa as if anyone ever did in the first place.)

AM SO SICK OF EVERYTHING
I
JUST
WANT
TO
DIE.

spider.

oh love, oh sanctuary!

you keep me feeling like a child,
safe.
i'm sorry to confess, i do, doubt.
would you leave me not unlike
other pleasures, that evade?

and turn.
a dream, a weaver
a spinner of lies, a web
only to consume?

as fear has.
i am afraid that i want,
only what might be taken away.

for if by holding a hand, solitude
and in a room full of people, i am but alone,

i have reason.