nobody said it was easy.

it's at times like these i really wonder where we're going.

my LOVE,
i'm at a loss.
i don't know what to do anymore.
i don't know what to say,
or think.
i don't know who we were,
or who we now are.
where were we?
where are we?

but nobody ever said it would be so hard.

you're sick.

what the fuck is going on?

this is fucking abuse. if you're insecure, fine. if you're paranoid i can put up with your occasional outbursts. bad tempered? i'll cope.

BUT EVERYFUCKINGBODY HAS THEIR LIMITS.

i left my phone at work today, and apparently that's too incredulous to believe. what the hell?

I DO NOT NEED
TO TAKE THIS SHIT.

this is ridiculous.
i really don't deserve this.
i really don't.

when life gives you lemons.

what do you make of something broken,
love?
what do you do about that?

girlfr and i are loving as usual, and i have missed this, really i have.

I LOVE YOU LAHH YOU MONSTER.

never look back, we said.

hello INSOMNIA, my friend

i have missed you so.
and didn't you me?
it's been so long since i've been embraced in your sweet caress,
since i felt your last loving non-word.
it's been breaking me into pieces,
wrecking me;
i promise you.

dear INSOMNIA, my love

tell me, did you miss my companionship?
me whining about my day and whatever un-eventfulness it had been?
i have missed your compromising silence.
no one listens to me like you do.

oh INSOMNIA, sweet insomnia

why-ever did you have to go?
too many people to entertain, and your never-ending list of to-do's..
like another first love i once had
you have branded me, lover
i feel betrayed

but still, unforgettable INSOMNIA

i will always remember you,
in the dreams i wouldn't have if you were around.

**original

false alarms.

trying to make this work.. could it possibly be as easy as it sounds?

wine red.

so marks the last of my days with ps cafe: harding. as well as the relationship.

it's like a curse, i keep reminding myself that bad things only happen in 3's. it will be over soon.

it's not funny anymore. how everyone manages to dump me sooner or later. it's not funny anymore, how everyone just decides to let go. does no one keep their resolve anymore?

whatever happened to love?

whatever happened to agape love?

it pays too much to try to fit everybody's bill nowadays, and i think that this has made me one of them.

i've given up.

i'm done, so done with being hurt.

i wish i never started this, any of this.
i wish i never played this game, because i'm against ridiculous odds.
i wish i was never fucking born.

this is not how i wanted all of this to start or end. somehow people form their own interpretations.

as what i said to doug,

perception is truth.

in which case, break up was inevitable.

eventually.