trivial things.

SHIT.

my boots were stolen yesterday outside MIL's house by banglahs who were doing construction.

i hate this place.

nb.

why the FUCK can't people just keep their hands off my property. WHY. steal someone else's luhh!

i'm sorry, that was mean. i mean, i know they earn peanuts and they can't afford such vain things, but who asked them to come to singapore where everything is expensive? that came out wrong. i mean, why do they not spare a thought for other people's feelings? i paid for the damned shoes! i am sick and tired of people stealing my shoes.

see that's why i moved from the condo so reluctantly. because i HATE HDB SHOE BANDITS.

HELLO GOVERNMENT.
TIME TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS.

tsk.



(we've decided to name the baby jerlyn instead :])

ohh, sweet child of mine.

Sarah. says:
hahaa
island creamery is not bad
i still like potong ice cream better tho
the red bean one

stacecake! says:
sheessh i know what potong ice cream is!

Sarah. says:
got different flavour what
stupid

stacecake! says:
is it. i thought potong meant red bean

Sarah. says:
got red bean got the corn one got the durian one
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA
kuttu

stacecake! says:
haha
whoops.

hahaa wtf luhh.

yesterday, once more?

it never hurt more than this.

stability or the whirlwind?

or perhaps, the straight and narrow, with detours along the way.

decisions, decisions.

anyways, yesterday night was a tornado of events. saw scandal and fel when i least expected it, and they left halfway to go play poker with justin. HATE YOU.

got around and met a few interesting people. pao-ed mervyn (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.). bestest and rosanne finally came. got an awesome present and an awesome birthday card. went in, pao-ed mervyn again. met a few more strangers. went to macs. ate disgusting fries and a sausage mcmuffin with egg. went home to sweet sweet girlfr.

i missed her.

sometimes, fear is too crucial to miss. fear that you'll make a mistake. fear that you'll make a mistake along your mistake. fear that you may lose that special someone.

takes some people some goddamn bumpy lessons to learn sometimes.

that not-so-silent-night.

yesternight was AMAZING.

met josh, rus and savage at far east first, after i got my hair cut, then was joined by bun bun, nigel and mervyn. bunny got me a silver shiny sparkly top which i affectionately dubbed the space top. I LOVE IT.

(i promise i'll wear it luhh bun bun!)

proceeded to chips after our wabbit had her burger at kfc, then cut the CAKE. oh god that beautiful, beautiful cake. everyone got either a chocolate flower or a blade of grass. it was imba i swear to the heavens. i got a necklace from savage, so

I LOVE YOU ALL YOU'RE THE BESTEST FRIENDS EVERRRRRRR.

girlfr came a bit later, then went to the thai disco upstairs with ah pu and tiger. poor baby, i snapped at her when we at cascaden, while the beautiful night was drawing to an end. but the darling still found it in her to forgive me.

thanks b. <3

all in all, i had an incredible night. i'm awesomely glad i spent my night with you.

KISSES FOR ALL.

ehh can't wait for friday. BESTIE GO AS A PINK PRINCESS LAHH. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

by the way, went to the hospital to see girlfr's sister-in-law and the newborn baby, and she's fucking gorgeous. if i get to name her, her name will be jeannie.

jeannie

jeannie

jeannieeeeeeeeeeee!

oh gods, too adorable for words.

candlelight and non-romances.

so i celebrated the coming of my birthday with a select few of the throngs of collegues that i've amassed over the months.

THEY GOT ME A CAKE.

(omfg i havent had a motherfucking cake in like a trillion years.)

subsequently, a series of unfortunate events occurred. and the nicest of things happened. so thank you, to the many of you.

and to you too luhh my little slut.

tomorrow is the commorates the 8th anniversary of the love affair that i've had with alcohol. predictably, the renewal of vows will be, this year, held at chips. my favourite watering hole, with my favourite non-single-serving friends.

CANNOT WAIT.

love to all, goodnight.


p.s. i cannot wait for my amazing presents.

HAHAHAHAHAA KIDDING LAH.

(no, seriously though.)

love me like that, dear john.

don't say that you're not done,

not ready yet, to leave.

don't hurt me the way you always do

that teasing power you know you have over my chained heart.

don't say that you're unaware,

that you don't know, any of it.

this cruel infliction that never fails to bleed me dry

that very expression that freezes my very soul.

(i havent written crap like that in so long.)

yes.

the one that be longs to you already.

i love my son.

this innocent bliss, doesn't happen to people like me just like that. i'm glad i broke down where i did.

me likey.

hershey choco-latteh.

down to my second last day. i love my workplace and i love the people in it. except for the china fucks that are invading every inch of it after 10 pm daily. to be fair i don't hate all of them. just a select few.

BUT STILL.

it's gonna be a bittersweet goodbye.

people just don't love anymore.

boyfriend and i are fine, fyi. and i don't take it for granted. yayy me.

irony, tears and how they make you rust.

you know how people say you never know what you miss until it's gone?

i say that sometimes, you don't know who you really care until they reappear.

i hope you're okay.

indignance almost always leads to amusement.

From:
Date:	01/31/2009 9:36 am
Subject:	hii
Message:	happy to meet you if u apply ;)

APPLY? APPLY TO WHAT?
PROSTITUTION?

sick fucks.

play me like tennis.

i really didn't feel like blogging today. in fact i still don't. but since i'm here:

KANINABEHCHAOCHEEBYE
IHATETHEWORLD.

outburst. i should really apologize but i'm not going to because, my loves, or whoever my audience has degraded to at this point, i am simply not in the fucking mood.

miraculously, i report, girlfriend and i spent time during the day being deliciously lovey-dovey and everything. but since we stepped into the motherfucking hell that we call second home, it was decidedly pear shaped.

random question, why is it always pear-shaped?

anyways.

boyfriend cheated on me. not really. just was being intimate with some random chick. not that either.

FINE.

i'll admit it. (as if anyone's asking.)

i was jealous.

there you have it folks. me. of all goddamn invincible youths in the world.

i hate that.

it's like one of those things people insist on doing that's not going to change anything. like fasting for world peace. like commemorate the victims of 9/11 with an hour of silence. like boycott KFC.

like for fuck's sake.

people are going to fight to their deaths over stupid things. the dead are not going to come back to life after years of BEING dead. chickens are still going to be eaten.

people are still going to do things to you that will hurt like crazy.

so WHY.

guess i'm normal.

i'm not trying to think of anything to say, not trying to make myself sound profound, or mushy and sensitive. it just HAPPENS.

a rant, as i like to call it. words. just words on a page that fall nicely next to each other.

call me a lunatic,
but i wish i could hear your voice like raindrops.
incoherent, soothing.
they may or may not blister my skin,
but i know i'll feel you.
if only i was brave enough.
maybe.

forgive me for repetition, which i myself loathe to the core. but really.

for fuck's sake.

nbcb.

lots to update about, not enough time. it's currently 5.32 in the goddamn morning and i am exhausted. day went as per normal (or as normal as they can get these days.). i came home drunk as a fish yesterday and girlfriend stayed mad at me almost the entire day.

i hope to god she's recovered.

i know i'm nasty when i get high or higher, but really, doesn't everybody?

tsk.

more tomorrow. i need to recuperate.